Hi. Im back. I feel weird but so excited.
Cant believe its been years since my last post.
So many things happened. Eg, a dear friend gave birth (?!) i mean, GAVE BIRTH!!!! made a baby.
Sounds so adult right. but believe me, we are all a child at heart.
Anyway, I want to start by sharing some rather depressing stuff. So today is 4th day since Restriction of Movement Order (RMO). Its COVID19 season. I am not home. I am not with my family. However, I am doing fine. I had a fever but its long gone.
Its the weekend but its been a very quiet one. Well, another 4 COVID deaths today, that makes it 8 in total. I dont know and done even want to think of how many could it be tomorrow. You can say im in denial. I cant believe COVID is really happening. It seems just like those in movies, you know. I am scared. well... Malaysians are scared but we are hopeful.
Well i hope i'll post again tomorrow. Hopefully something real nice and good.
See ya
Saturday, 21 March 2020
Friday, 4 August 2017
Coret di hujung minggu
Aku tak pernah patut biar watak lelaki mengaburi pandangan aku,
Iya, dia beri aku teman, gembira dan keyakinan,
Semakin aku dapat, semakin aku ketagih,
Tapi, aku sedar,
Aku punya lebih dari itu,
Aku ada aku.
Aku mau lebih dari apa yang aku fikir aku sudah ada,
Tidak aku mampu untuk capat ke langit,
Tapi aku mampu bercita-cita,
bermimpi dan berangan-angan,
Itu aku.
Iya, dia beri aku teman, gembira dan keyakinan,
Semakin aku dapat, semakin aku ketagih,
Tapi, aku sedar,
Aku punya lebih dari itu,
Aku ada aku.
Aku mau lebih dari apa yang aku fikir aku sudah ada,
Tidak aku mampu untuk capat ke langit,
Tapi aku mampu bercita-cita,
bermimpi dan berangan-angan,
Itu aku.
Tuesday, 25 October 2016
Happy 21st Birthday
Birthday is just another usual day.
With lots of great great wishes coming in.
Its my birthday right. So i wanna post few words my friends said about me.
That id wanna cheerish, forever.
The order is random, really. Nothing against anyone. I collected a lot already, until my whatsapp crashed. so yeah. this is all i got...
To my other beloved friends who unconditionally love and keep supporting me, you have your spot in my heart okay :)
'Youre the strongest girl i know in this world. If anyone has the courage, its you, Sina. Youre an absolute inpiration to a lot of people, Sina'
With lots of great great wishes coming in.
Its my birthday right. So i wanna post few words my friends said about me.
That id wanna cheerish, forever.
The order is random, really. Nothing against anyone. I collected a lot already, until my whatsapp crashed. so yeah. this is all i got...
To my other beloved friends who unconditionally love and keep supporting me, you have your spot in my heart okay :)
'Youre the strongest girl i know in this world. If anyone has the courage, its you, Sina. Youre an absolute inpiration to a lot of people, Sina'
Hafiz Adenan
'Youre lucky to have different path. Its extraordinary, just in case you dont know'
Aini yasmin
'And do me a favor by being the same Sina i knew and love so much. That Sina is an amazing friend/basketball player/eyebrow victim/ pendengar rungutan yang setia and much more lah senang cerita'
Fatiha Kamaludin
Does it feel homey, yet? - Pt.2
Now, studying degree.
Home can be a stressful place to be.
I am not sure if its the growing up part or its really home.
Staying at home means distress.
However,
the more i question this.
the more i find myself at peace,
while doing things i shouldve done morrreee a long time ago.
like, help more. do more. follow my mom around moree, volunteer more.
What does home remind you about?
How do you think your home play a role in your whole life?
Try stay at home. You feel homey yet?
Ask that. Ask yourself more.
Bcs if u dont feel homey, youre losing it.
You lose a part of your soul.
Maybe thats just why Peterpan hates growing up.
Because you forget.
Home can be a stressful place to be.
I am not sure if its the growing up part or its really home.
Staying at home means distress.
However,
the more i question this.
the more i find myself at peace,
while doing things i shouldve done morrreee a long time ago.
like, help more. do more. follow my mom around moree, volunteer more.
What does home remind you about?
How do you think your home play a role in your whole life?
Try stay at home. You feel homey yet?
Ask that. Ask yourself more.
Bcs if u dont feel homey, youre losing it.
You lose a part of your soul.
Maybe thats just why Peterpan hates growing up.
Because you forget.
Does it feel homey, yet? - Pt.1
Home.
As i recall my childhood memory, theres only one place i would call home.
We moved out a few times, but ended up staying at our first house. Its our house we staying in now.
Everyone was everywhere.
No one was really at home that time.
I stayed at my aunt's place for months after my UPSR.
I stayed at my bestfriend's place during the trial.
I often came back home from school but no one was there, so i went to my Tok Cik's place,
it was just few blocks away.
My childhood was truly something. Adapting myself at others' places had been the skills i picked up along the way.
Still, home was the best place i could remember.
Then came high school (boarding school).
Every long holiday got me hyped up. Feeling so excited to go home.
And when holiday ended, i have no problem going back to school,
but i can remember exactly what i did with my family and the memories i made at home.
Nothing feel so homey like home.
Next was A Level.
What else could i say. Lots of things happened.
I went through some life changing experience like love life conflicts, different community etc.
I learnt tonnes of things about myself too.
The bitter thing was, home isnt homey anymore.
I couldnt figure out why. I just felt it that way.
I didnt realize it at first. Until i caught myself making up reasons trying to go back to college instead of staying home for too long.
Home is not homey anymore.
I wonder why.
As i recall my childhood memory, theres only one place i would call home.
We moved out a few times, but ended up staying at our first house. Its our house we staying in now.
Everyone was everywhere.
No one was really at home that time.
I stayed at my aunt's place for months after my UPSR.
I stayed at my bestfriend's place during the trial.
I often came back home from school but no one was there, so i went to my Tok Cik's place,
it was just few blocks away.
My childhood was truly something. Adapting myself at others' places had been the skills i picked up along the way.
Still, home was the best place i could remember.
Then came high school (boarding school).
Every long holiday got me hyped up. Feeling so excited to go home.
And when holiday ended, i have no problem going back to school,
but i can remember exactly what i did with my family and the memories i made at home.
Nothing feel so homey like home.
Next was A Level.
What else could i say. Lots of things happened.
I went through some life changing experience like love life conflicts, different community etc.
I learnt tonnes of things about myself too.
The bitter thing was, home isnt homey anymore.
I couldnt figure out why. I just felt it that way.
I didnt realize it at first. Until i caught myself making up reasons trying to go back to college instead of staying home for too long.
Home is not homey anymore.
I wonder why.
Another world
Lately, i often caught myself spacing out.
Nothing deep. Just killing the time.
It is as if i dont mind if my voice isnt heard by the world,
It is like i dont mind being trapped in a world i created,
It is as if i really enjoy being alone.
I picture myself doing things,
if nothing could stop me.
" car/moto GP racer "
nice ay.
What would you do?
Nothing deep. Just killing the time.
It is as if i dont mind if my voice isnt heard by the world,
It is like i dont mind being trapped in a world i created,
It is as if i really enjoy being alone.
I picture myself doing things,
if nothing could stop me.
" car/moto GP racer "
nice ay.
What would you do?
Wednesday, 18 May 2016
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