Mirror #5

N gave me this note, 

hmm this one ah, i dont know how to say it,
all i can say,  i m a good keeper.

So i keep it all inside.

Blogging is one of my way to handle this, 

because sometimes, its hurt to much to take care of others feeling

but not all did the same to me.

thasts why i my earlier entry since making this blog, i talked about Pathetic

sometimes, i felt like being this way is too much pathetic.
but i have friends to be shoulders to cry, 

nisak raja enol diyana mawad amal faros aliah seri miramad anis.
theyre my best shoulders

whenever i felt like to cry, i dont wanna cry
because i dont want to look weak.

when i hurt,  i stop talking

then they knew that sth happened. so they asked me to
 look at them, and tears rolling down my cheek, but then i told them nothing.
still, they got me well.

being me, how pathetic i am.

its just that i cant find the right word to tell how i feel, and what i'm thinking